Poetry

A Selection from 1997 to 1999
by gooey

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Scattered, shredded, tossed, and torn are pieces of my life.
Your life seems so organized as if you feed off scorn.
i like the newborn touch; the one i lacked so much, of love given, soft.
You had perfection, a must, it drove you to mistrust, the desire so deserving of one's gifts.
The pressure to fulfill, of dreams, i have little skill, but to fail means i've disappointed and fallen.
Yet when you awoke to smells you couldn't cover, even with logic it was a challenge for you to cope, to live out of power.
Growing was easy; i had no choice, the one thing i could do with a voice, showing dependence.
Tough as nails is what you are, never giving yourself the chance.
If one day - you think you can - turn from a boy into a man?

May 25, 1997

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I allowed myself to feel a reality of giving
A place where one knows true meaning
A landscape of trust and sure of being
To rest in its meadow you relax and share
The sunset and colors are sirens to the soul
As you hear the call and glimpse the beacon
The need moves you closer.........closer............
Then the waves of life move you into shore
There you find in taking you give more

May 26, 1997

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The energy you feel when you meet a friend is like lightning through your soul
The direction you move after the bolt guides you to your destination
Your lover, your sister, your listener, your helper, your brother, your advisor, your angelic person "spot"?

Or

Your enemy, your advocate, your last nerve, your debate, your challenge, your prey, your "devil" that you fought.....?

Date unknown

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Feeling again, the joy I once knew
Seeing again, the things I can do
Smelling again, the freedom I love, too

All this is me now, no more "if you only understood" doubts

You can never make me taste failure, because you have no dietary control now

But the things you do have is ....my life, my soul, my groove, yeah
But one day they will fly and I won't be denied..

March 10, 1999

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WELL......here I am again,
So angry at a friend.
They tell u it will be all right,
Then they stab you in the back
So you can't fight.

.......Oh my my,
Oh my dear......
Oh did that hurt?
Please have no fear.......
For it was "I" that did everything for you!
"I" spent your money and "I" drank your booze.
If it wasn't for me, you see, you see......
You would be great and your family would agree
But since you were so good and true,
"I" only want to turn on you.
For, if not by words then actions too
"I" will take what "I" want from you.

With a smile on your lip, and not a thought on your heart..............
"YOU" seem to tear my world apart.....

July 13, 1999

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Dizzy
i see you - my heart skips.
i touch you - my skin flips.
i smell you - my mind dips.
i feel you - my soul grips.
Dizzy is how i deal,
When with you....how i heal.

March 10, 1999

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Summer Solstice
Egg Harbor City Lake, NJ
"The Burn"

As we sit by the fire,
We are given to the hour,
To offer our desire of caring.

We need the cleansing to empower,
All our feelings to aspire,
Of what we can become.

June 21, 1997